Strength in Numbers - Results from One Year of Bulking - 2018

The results of my 2018 bulk and training are in! Find out how much strength is possible to gain in just one years time and the methods the ensure gains all year long.

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One Year on Testosterone - FTM Transition Before and After

This video recaps my first year of transition through clips from my video journal series. I talk about the incredible experience of this first year on testosterone and show my FTM transformation.

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FTM Top Surgery Video Journal - Day of Surgery to 2 Weeks Post Op

This video combines video journal entries that I shot during my first 2 weeks of recovery from top surgery. The video also features before and after photos of my chest throughout this last 10 months on testosterone.

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Strength in Numbers - FTM Fitness, One Year of Bulking

I get asked a lot what I did to start training and putting on muscle. I point people to my blog because all I have is my own experience. I've never trained anyone else, but I've documented ALL of my progress. This post shows the numbers of my success and what I did to achieve them.

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Top Surgery Fund - Now On GoFundMe!

Please consider making a donation, any amount with fill my heart with love. I really appreciate any form of encouragement and am grateful for all of the love that I receive from people from around the world through social media. If you can not donate, please share this campaign.

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5 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 5 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental changes, and life updates. The video ends with some voice and phone comparisons.

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4 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 4 months on hormone replacement therapy. This video starts with a general update on my mental health and how I've been doing. This is followed by a discussion on how I've been "passing" lately as male in public and my thoughts on the experience.

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12 Weeks On Testosterone - HRT Update

The last 2 weeks since my previous update have been a little up and down. For the first 10 weeks of hormone replacement therapy, I can honestly say that my dysphoria was doing really good. Going on T definitely has helped ease so many aspects of my gender dysphoria and I know that I am on the path to elevating it even further. In the aftermath of coming out to my professional network... some stuff got stirred up and my dysphoria has been creeping in lately.

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10 Weeks On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my series "Endowed" which follows me through my first year of gender transition. I am 10 weeks into hormone replacement therapy in this video and wanted to document the physical changes that I have been experiencing along with some big transition updates.

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10 Weeks On Testosterone - HRT Update

Wow, the past two weeks have flown by and they have been full of changes... both physically and in my life. The last update I did was at my 2 months on T mark. I'm now at 10 full weeks on hormone replacement therapy and these were the 2 weeks full of the most changes.

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2 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my series "Endowed" which follows me through my first year of gender transition. I am just about 2 months into hormone replacement therapy in this video and wanted to document the physical and mental changes that I have been experiencing along with some life updates.

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2 Months On Testosterone - HRT Update

Here I am... 2 months on testosterone. I'm not sure if I expected to be more excited, if I should be more excited, or if I'm exactly how I should be. Everything seems right in so many ways with my life right now and also things all seem so foreign and off. No matter how much I tried to button up everything before starting my transition, life throws it's mighty punches. That's the lesson it seems... to just ride the waves because they never stop coming.

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7 Weeks On Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 7 weeks on hormone replacement therapy. I start the video talking about the physical changes that I have been experiencing. These include facial hair growth, body hair thickness, changes to my cycle, and voice changes.

6 Weeks on Testosterone

On Monday, April 3rd, 2017, I will inject my 7th shot of testosterone which puts me at 6 weeks on hormone replacement therapy. Lately, I have been through some significant stress in my work life and personal life. Managing my stress has been a big priority over the past 2 weeks. In this pressure cooker of stress, I noticed some interesting things happen with my self confidence and my gender dysphoria. Being stressed caused me to feel weak and not as energetic, this dampened my spirits and created a chain reaction that went straight for my self confidence.

12 Week Bulk to Gain Lean Mass Program - FTM Fitness

This bulk program is going to be challenging for me because I have a hard time with being "fluffy". Anytime my body fat goes up, especially around my waist, my dysphoria kicks up. I struggle with this and it is a hurdle to overcome. I know I want to gain size, strength, and muscle mass but getting there requires a bit of puffiness and less of a lean/tight look. This will be my battle... allowing myself to gain weight and finding the mental peace with it.

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One Month on Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks my one month on hormone replacement therapy. The video first goes over the mental changes that I have experienced during this first month. I also go over the physical changes that I have been experiencing along with some issues that I have had lately with needles and distribution of my hormones.

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Tarot as a Self Care Tool

The beauty of the Tarot lies in the relationship that one develops with it over time. There will be readings that are just ok, some will be surprising, and some will be deeply moving. There are times that I have felt an energy connecting with me that was clear and strong.

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Training Plans - Chest Workout

This chest routine is a beast. It hammers the chest muscles until they are completely depleted. This is my one workout where I sometimes struggle to complete the lasts sets because my muscles are so done by the end of the routine. It is extremely effective though.

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12 Week Beginner Bulk Program