10 Months on Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 10 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental changes, and life updates.

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8 Months on Testosterone - FTM Transition Update Journal

It's honestly a little surreal to be at 8 months on testosterone. Sometimes I still feel like I'm back at the beginning and filled with the unsteady feeling of embarking on something big. Over these past 8 months I have grown considerably. Yes, physically I've grown but as a person I have changed.

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3 Months On Testosterone - Video Update

Original record date: May 20th, 2017. This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 3 months on hormone replacement therapy. This update includes mental health updates and physical changes.

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12 Weeks On Testosterone - HRT Update

The last 2 weeks since my previous update have been a little up and down. For the first 10 weeks of hormone replacement therapy, I can honestly say that my dysphoria was doing really good. Going on T definitely has helped ease so many aspects of my gender dysphoria and I know that I am on the path to elevating it even further. In the aftermath of coming out to my professional network... some stuff got stirred up and my dysphoria has been creeping in lately.

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2 Months On Testosterone - HRT Update

Here I am... 2 months on testosterone. I'm not sure if I expected to be more excited, if I should be more excited, or if I'm exactly how I should be. Everything seems right in so many ways with my life right now and also things all seem so foreign and off. No matter how much I tried to button up everything before starting my transition, life throws it's mighty punches. That's the lesson it seems... to just ride the waves because they never stop coming.

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6 Weeks on Testosterone

On Monday, April 3rd, 2017, I will inject my 7th shot of testosterone which puts me at 6 weeks on hormone replacement therapy. Lately, I have been through some significant stress in my work life and personal life. Managing my stress has been a big priority over the past 2 weeks. In this pressure cooker of stress, I noticed some interesting things happen with my self confidence and my gender dysphoria. Being stressed caused me to feel weak and not as energetic, this dampened my spirits and created a chain reaction that went straight for my self confidence.

Combating Stress and Self Doubt

This video is on the topic of stress and how it often causes me to doubt myself. These doubts often lead to self confidence and shame issues. Throughout my journey to my authentic self, I've experienced many bouts of shame, anxiety, depression, and lack of self confidence. There have been some really helpful self care tools that got me through hard times and this video aims to share those.

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Depression's Deeper Purpose

I needed to go through that darkness to come to a true sense of understanding...

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12 Week Beginner Bulk Program