Smoking CBD and Cooking Plant Protein - A Weekend Vlog

Welcome to my first ever weekend vlog. Hang out with me while I roll CBD joints, go to the grocery store, take a walk, cooking some plant protein, and talk about smoking CBD for anxiety.

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Warning Signs That You May Need a New Therapist

This video is all about the warning signs of when you may need a new therapist or a break from therapy. This topic is very important to me. I never really saw a list of these warning signs and didn't know going into therapy how to spot a professional working relationship that is losing it's benefits. I hope this video can help others in their future therapy efforts!

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One Year on Testosterone - FTM Transition Before and After

This video recaps my first year of transition through clips from my video journal series. I talk about the incredible experience of this first year on testosterone and show my FTM transformation.

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11 Months on Testosterone - Video Update - FTM Transition

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 11 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone).This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental changes, and life updates. The video ends with some photo comparisons.

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10 Months on Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks 10 months on hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). This video starts with physical changes, followed by mental changes, and life updates.

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Going "Home" for the Holidays - LGBTQ+ Reminder

The Holidays can be difficult for so many reasons. They are meant to be enjoyed with the people we love... bring us close together. Often, they do the opposite. There's all the stress of planning, large amounts of food, the pressure to spend money, seeing people that you haven't seen in a long time, etc. Some of these pressures can feel really overwhelming, especially if you are already going through a particularly vulnerable patch in your life.

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"Old Soul" Designs Now Available for Purchase

OLD SOUL designs now available on the online store. Available on apparel and wall art. All proceeds go towards my top surgery fund.

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Supplements: What I Take for Bodybuilding & Wellness

When looking at supplementation, I try to keep in mind what the actual term means and find the holes in my diet. Those nutritional holes can be filled with supplements. It is important to do research when buying and taking supplements. Beyond just reading what others have to say, your body and personal experience is going to be the most important factor. Try different things and always track how you feel. Learn from personal experience what is working best to enhance your performance, recovery, immunity, energy, mental health, and overall wellbeing.

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Putting On Size Pre-T and How To Start Bodybuilding - (FTM Fitness)

This video is a long format introduction to how I started my bodybuilding journey and how I put on size/muscle before starting testosterone.

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12 Week Bulk to Gain Lean Mass Program - Phase 1 Results

Wow, did I learn a lot on this bulk. This first 12 week phase was so beneficial to learning about my body and fitness. My goal was to put on size and I definitely accomplished that. I was able to gain 1lb a week, up my bench press by 20 lbs, and increase my caloric intake by 600 more calories a day. Throughout the bulk though I learned a few other things...

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Supercharge Your Coffee - Ways to Enhance a Daily Ritual

I'm a daily coffee drinker. I love it. Having my trusty steel mug filled with warm deep golden brown liquid is one of the best parts of my day... every day. I wouldn't miss that opportunity to savor goodness and enjoy something so simple yet so complex tasting.

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6 Weeks on Testosterone

On Monday, April 3rd, 2017, I will inject my 7th shot of testosterone which puts me at 6 weeks on hormone replacement therapy. Lately, I have been through some significant stress in my work life and personal life. Managing my stress has been a big priority over the past 2 weeks. In this pressure cooker of stress, I noticed some interesting things happen with my self confidence and my gender dysphoria. Being stressed caused me to feel weak and not as energetic, this dampened my spirits and created a chain reaction that went straight for my self confidence.

One Month on Testosterone - Video Update

This video is part of my transition update series and it marks my one month on hormone replacement therapy. The video first goes over the mental changes that I have experienced during this first month. I also go over the physical changes that I have been experiencing along with some issues that I have had lately with needles and distribution of my hormones.

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Tarot as a Self Care Tool

The beauty of the Tarot lies in the relationship that one develops with it over time. There will be readings that are just ok, some will be surprising, and some will be deeply moving. There are times that I have felt an energy connecting with me that was clear and strong.

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3 Weeks on Testosterone

The calm that has overtaken me is very stable and steady. In the past 3 weeks my life hasn't been a breeze, it's been stressful with work and I've had relationship issues straining me. The difference is occurring in how I am existing through these events.

Drinking After Sobriety

After ruminating on the decision I knew that I didn't want to drink to alter my state, escape, numb out, or run. I wanted to be able to drink occasionally, end of story. It was the lack of excitement about it that was promising to me. I wasn't itching for a swig. I knew that if I tried it again and it didn't go well, that I could always go back to sobriety. That method would always be there for me as a tool.

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Depression's Deeper Purpose

I needed to go through that darkness to come to a true sense of understanding...

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12 Week Beginner Bulk Program