This video goes over the changes that I have experienced from 1.5 to 2 years on T. I talk about physical changes, mental state, and where my transition seems to have arrived at 2 years.

Anti-Inflammatory Tea for Muscle Repair and Workout Recovery

Try this Anti-Inflammatory Tea to Naturally Decrease Inflammation - Filled with healing properties to help you recover faster and keep crushing workouts.

My 100th Shot of Testosterone

This video celebrates hitting 100 shots of testosterone since starting hormone replacement therapy.

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One Year Post Op Top Surgery - Review of Dr. Garramone and Results

This video shows me at one year after having double incision top surgery with Dr. Garramone in Miami, FL. I go over how I've healed, give my review of my experience with Dr. Garramone and his team, what the recovery process was like, and share if I am happy with my results.

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Full Day of Eating - Vegan Plant Based Bulking

This post shows a typical day of eating for me on my current bulking diet. My current diet is plant based and vegan. No meat and no dairy. My meal plan and macros are based off my goals of putting on 1-1.5 pounds a week of mass (mostly lean mass but fat is inevitable). These calculations are based on weekly weigh ins and my macros are adjusted according to the weight I'm gaining.

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2 Months Post Op - FTM Top Surgery - Update Video

This video covers where I'm at with physical healing, my experiences in the gym, and my mental state concerning my chest at two months post op top surgery.

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Post Op Top Surgery Scar Care - Topical Treatments and Nutrition to Heal

After care is vital to healthy healing and feeling your best. In this post, I discuss my scar care methods for post op top surgery care. These care methods mostly apply to once you are at about 2 weeks post op and beyond.

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One Month Post Op - FTM Top Surgery - Video Update

This video talks about my recovery experience since having top surgery. I talk about where I'm at with healing, how I'm feeling, and scar care at one month post op.

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FTM Top Surgery Video Journal - Day of Surgery to 2 Weeks Post Op

This video combines video journal entries that I shot during my first 2 weeks of recovery from top surgery. The video also features before and after photos of my chest throughout this last 10 months on testosterone.

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12 Week Bulk to Gain Lean Mass Program - Phase 3 Results

I've learned so much about training, nutrition, and my body during these last 36 weeks. Tracking your training and nutrition are keys to being able to evaluate and fine tune your training methods. Looking back, I'm so glad that I did this and jumped into the scary zone of doing everything you can to make gains. There were so many moments that I felt terrified that I was just going to gain body fat and that my aesthetics would be far off from what I was trying to achieve. Gaining lean mass is a slow and patient process. You have to trust the journey and be ready for victories and times when things seem to be stagnant.

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Dark Chocolate Protein Pancakes with Berries

My love of pancakes continues... they are my go to post workout meal. Protein pancakes make a great post workout because you get a nice rush of carbs and easy to digest proteins. Plus, they feel very rewarding.

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Supplements: What I Take for Bodybuilding & Wellness

When looking at supplementation, I try to keep in mind what the actual term means and find the holes in my diet. Those nutritional holes can be filled with supplements. It is important to do research when buying and taking supplements. Beyond just reading what others have to say, your body and personal experience is going to be the most important factor. Try different things and always track how you feel. Learn from personal experience what is working best to enhance your performance, recovery, immunity, energy, mental health, and overall wellbeing.

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Supercharge Your Coffee - Ways to Enhance a Daily Ritual

I'm a daily coffee drinker. I love it. Having my trusty steel mug filled with warm deep golden brown liquid is one of the best parts of my day... every day. I wouldn't miss that opportunity to savor goodness and enjoy something so simple yet so complex tasting.

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Combating Stress and Self Doubt

This video is on the topic of stress and how it often causes me to doubt myself. These doubts often lead to self confidence and shame issues. Throughout my journey to my authentic self, I've experienced many bouts of shame, anxiety, depression, and lack of self confidence. There have been some really helpful self care tools that got me through hard times and this video aims to share those.

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Drinking After Sobriety

After ruminating on the decision I knew that I didn't want to drink to alter my state, escape, numb out, or run. I wanted to be able to drink occasionally, end of story. It was the lack of excitement about it that was promising to me. I wasn't itching for a swig. I knew that if I tried it again and it didn't go well, that I could always go back to sobriety. That method would always be there for me as a tool.

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Depression's Deeper Purpose

I needed to go through that darkness to come to a true sense of understanding...

Embrace, EndowedRiver EastwoodFebruary 3, 2017Depression, Anxiety, Self Work, Journey, Embrace, Personal Story, LGBT, Trans, transgender, FTM, mental health, therapy, recovery, alcohol, health, emotional health, fear, doubt, struggle, gender, dysphoriaComment

Struggle with Over Consumption

Any act of consumption can quickly turn into a way to shove down feelings, anxieties, and fears. Whether it's a case of beer or a case of donuts, items that we consume can quickly turn into sources of go-to gratification.

Nutrition, Nourish, EmbraceRiver EastwoodJanuary 15, 2017health, wellness, nutrition, macros, tracking, meal plan, cut diet, diet, emotional health, eating disorders, over consumption, food, motivation, change, alcohol, drug use, sobriety, recovery, story, journeyComment

12 Week Beginner Bulk Program